That I'm having a baby in 4 months!
It hit me while I was leaving work on Friday. I was walking to my car and I realized I will be having a little baby soon. Not only are we having a baby that we are going to take care of and love, but Mazie will be my pride & joy, my constant worry and the love of my life. It made me happy and scared at the same time. Then I started thinking about the birth, whether to get the epidural or to go natural. For some people that don't know me very well, I love, love, love horror movies and love being scared, but the bloody parts are not for me and I hate needles and giving blood. I really get lightheaded every time. I know it's all in my head, but how do I fight it? I really want to go natural but I'm afraid if I can't push enough or am in to much pain they will have to do a c-section. And I am not for C-Sections. Being awake during the tugging, ripping and pulling, I DON'T THINK SO! I would be scarred for life! My next appointment is in 2 weeks and I will be meeting with my doctor to discuss my birth plan (hopefully) also I am taking the dreaded Diabetes test. I've heard it sucks from friends, so I am hoping they made it sound more worse then it really is.
Love,
Kristin
